Andres Linetsky Y Ernesto Romeo

I am listening to this song again.
I fell in love with it upon the first hearing.
And I am still in love with it.

I know...I am always the "love at first sight" kinda person.That's why if I fancied something I saw on the streets,I usually wont hesistate to get it or hold for it..but eventually will still get it.

Of course there are circumstances whereby I realise I dont like it as much upon the next sight.
But those times are rare.

Things that I grow to like are important and likeable as well.But to me,the amount of "love" I have as compare to the "love at first sight" are differ by a few notches.
You cant force me to balance them and stuff.

They are just different.
For the one I love at first sight is always special,while the one I grow to love is precious.

Which is more significant to you?
'Precious' or 'Special'?

I guess that isnt a very fair question to anyone.
It is hard to choose.
Why cant they be one?I mean why cant they be both special and precious?Isnt the thing precious coz it is special?

I wish...
God dont give perfect gifts forever.

Ok..I am diverting.
Maybe I am just using that to relate something I always wanted to question anyone and myself.

Let me put it this way:

If one day while you are shopping...
Ok...imagine you are shopping for whatever you love.
For Jason..it may be goal keepers' gloves.
For Yng..it may be exotic cuts jewels.

There are 2 very outstanding designs.

One is something you always wanted.
It may not be necessarily appealing to every single souls..but it is just you!
You love it.

But right besides it is another one of a kind.
Say it is the limited edition of this century and few are left in the market now.
And only one is left right before your eye.
You know you would be proud to own it.

Hey...You cant take both.You are only allow to buy one home and you must know that there may not be another similar ones outside...


It is once in a lifetime deal.

Think...think hard!

Which would you take home?
Hard deal,huh?

I dun wanna deny.If I ever have the chance,I would take the former.

You should know what I am saying right now.
You know me.

I wouldnt say that there is any changes for me,or I am not being truthful in my words to you.

Ok..
Look at me.
Listen to me.

You know who I am,how I think,how I feel from the start.
I tied alot of knots inside and they dont untangle easily.

I am always...maybe for all that I can,trying to offer the whole of me to you.
I am gratefully insipired by all the fairytales in real life and always wanted to be like them and create my own fairy tale with you.
Be One and Only One.

It is just that sometimes...I am displeased with the same old issue that I always bring up to you.

I dont mean you didnt even listen to me or show it to me.Infact you did.
But somehow..somewhere...eventually...it still slip back to that same old square.

See...I need alot of fire to back up this relationship.
I need the passion to keep me in bond with you.
You dont just sit back and ignore things like that.

While we have our own spaces,fair and square...it doesnt mean that our relationship turned to a rountine...a shriveling white rose.

Ok..
You know what the thing I can trying to conceal always?

You know...I believe that when one is completely in love,he turns blind.
Samewise for all the lovefools on earth...including me.

If a guy like Albert in the show Hitch can gets me solely in love with him,I wouldnt mind if he is like so much shorter than me,fatter and sometimes just klutzy.

Similarly...There are times...I am so in love with you..I can really just see a Prince Charming infront of me.You totally just shine and keeps my eyes twinkling whenever I see you.

But whatever...
Tell me...how come there are times I still dont see that.
When I dont see that...I see all the differences and things I wont accept for my kinda guy.
Then I turned difficult and mean.And I know...you dont like me too.

But really this happened coz I dont feel too in love.
I only feel that we are just two people walking out there,holding hands and walk just becoz we have been doing this for the past 20 mths.

Kissing is not a pleasant or natural step to follow anymore.

While I know this is not right of me,I try to stop myself.
I closed my eyes,shut my thoughts and tell myself how wonderful this is gonna be.

I smiled,I cheered...but it wont last.It makes me zapped out by the end of the day.
It's like I am the only one trying to be,to re live..

I know at the end of all these...You are gonna make me convinced again that it is still me doing my own tricks eventually.

Ya...why did I bother to perform my own tricks and make things difficult for myself?

Then..too..I miss that special thing.Though nothing ever happen before.Though I never even own it before...Though I wish I never set my eyes on it before.
But it was a curse.
Coz before I know I had to let go of everything,I said...I will always pray for it and it shall always be special.

But while I have my precious you,I dont wanna be doing this you know.
I dont wanna be slained with the name of infidel one.
I can see that you are true and will be so as long as you love me...I wanna be so to you too...
Then...
Stop making me not to.

While I am here,doing my best.
I wouldnt want you to be skiving one corner..thinking we will always be ok.

Like most gals,I need romance,TLC,attention and feel like a princess sometimes..

Dont try to reason with me.
I have no room in my head to decide that I am just being unreasonable again.

I am still thinking about other things.

I dont wanna hear that I am wrong about this.
While there is no right or wrong...there are only self defences and proclaimations of your own stands,like me

I am just weary huh.

Ironically....When they always say...couples must communicate..And I affirm that theory.

I am just not good at speaking.

Blogs...are a one way track.

Night.